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(or lack thereof)

Here’s a note to let you know that I am moving. I still love wordpress in it’s entirety, but I fancied a change and the ability to do my own thing without sacrificing hard earned plane money to do so

On that note, you can now find me here. This will be my new home for the forseeable future, hope to see you there

Ok peoples need you to check out my newest post in regards to this…

Luckily enough (due to my unwavering ability to make people feel sorry for me) I managed to get him rebooked on a flight leaving tonight on the same times, but in first class. He was going to have to spend the night in the airport, but apparently he can make people feel sorry for him too and he managed to wrangle a hotel room too.

So i’m annoyed that Delta aren’t admitting any responsibility for the delay, they blame air traffic control, and i’m annoyed that he’s not here when he should be, but i’m reassured that he’ll be here tomorrow morning. And to be honest, he’ll probably be in better form for the night’s sleep and the better comfort on the flight. I’m amazed that i managed to get him first class, I can’t even get myself on first class, yet I can manage to fix it for him!! Rage!! lol.

To add insult to injury, the battery on my mobile is dead and his is nearly gone, so I’m gonna call him in about 90mins to make sure he’s at the gate waiting on the flight, and I can check the times and such from this end to make sure there are no delays.

Talk to you soon

x x x

Darren is strapped for cash at the minute and is selling off the majority of his copied DVD collection for like £1 a movie. Which I love lol. I currently have 10 sitting on my desk, mostly the girly ones but also some interesting ones I’ve been told about but never seen. So to list -

The lost boys

Bring it on

Coyote ugly

Cheaper by the dozen 

Cheaper by the dozen 2

Wayne’s world

Sin city

Ted Bundy

The devils rejects

The magdalene sisters

And that is all

Ok, now w00t for B

Tonight – Last night at home before he gets here. I need to overfeed the fish so they survive through to Sat (which I’m sure they will), my dishes from this week (that there aren’t a lot of), packing a bag for mum’s with pj’s and something to wear on Sat that isnt’ my work clothes! hooooooovering lol, and dust. Not a lot really.

Tomorrow night – down to mum’s and then into Nicky’s to get my hair done and chill out for a bit with those guys.

Friday night – Make up some food for the drive down and back again, empty the car, have a big long bath and attempt to get some sleep (not that I think that will happen). 

Hopefully B will keep me up to date on his travels with a wee text message when he’s safely on the plane to Dublin @ JFK (before the plane leaves the terminal of course ). I must admit, i’m starting to freak out a bit for him and the change over times at the terminal, but I think he knows what he’s doing, and as soon as he gets his gate number he can set off at a sprint to get there (and I swear to god if you miss that plane, I will actually kill you. All fingers and toes crossed that there are no delays etc.)

He’s here in like 6 days. This time next week he’ll be here. Christ the night, I am wetting myself!!

Haha, not in a bad way, in a really really good way. But there’s fear as well as excitement. I’m really looking forward to him being here and to seeing him and holding him, but I know he has to leave, and that’s what’s making me want to hide. It was crap when I came home and I was missing him millions, like my heart was breaking because he wasn’t with me any longer, and I’m scared that it’s going to happen again. In fact I’m not scared it’s going to happen again, I know it’s going to happen again.

God I love him so much, and whenever you love someone like that, like they are a part of you, you never want that feeling to go away. You never want the laughing to stop, or the hugs to go away, and you never want to be without them for a day let alone months on end.

And that’s the thing about a long distance relationship, you have to deal with the fact that you never get to see the person you love. You have to spend so long apart, and when you get together again, the occasion is marred with the thoughts of one of you leaving. And I’m worried as well that things won’t be the same. Like, maybe with the fact that all we have is talking, that we’ll run out of words. That we won’t have anything to talk about. I dunno, I’m possibly just talking crap as usual.

And then there’s the fact that he’s coming here. And the fact that it makes me smile like a child at Christmas every time I think about it. That I have butterflies in my stomach at the thought of meeting him at the airport, and just getting to be held again. To be all wrapped up in him for two weeks when I can block out the rest of the world and when nothing else matters. 

You know when you watch a movie and the lead characters kiss, and everything around them melts away, like they’re the only people in the whole world? That’s what it feels like every time I kiss him. When he pulls me across the bed just to wrap his arms around me and won’t let me go. Those are the times I never want to end.

Luckily for me, the wanting to be happy part overrides the fear of being sad lol, so I’m super excited about him being here no matter what. 

I have a lot to do this week UGH. lol. Working Monday to Friday as usual, but on the early shift so it’s 8.00am – 4.30pm which will make life easier. I need to call into Belfast in the evening, one to get my eyebrows waxed (was meant to go at the weekend, but it was too expensive) and to fax off a letter to my phone insurance people for what is looking to be a large rebate of monies paid

Then I have to go down to Mum’s on Thurs night, to see if Nicky can do my hair for me, and then I’m staying at Mum’s on Friday night as well. There doesn’t seem a point in coming home when he lands in Dublin at 7.45am which means we’ll need to leave Whitehead at about 5.30am. Fun, fun, fun!! hahaha

So that leaves me the remainder of today and Tues and Wed nights to get this place sorted out, and Claire heads away on holiday tomorrow afternoon, so I can’t really do too much today :S lol. But there are some things that can be done, such as laundry and hoovering and getting my room sorted out a bit. So I don’t really mind if I have to give the rest of the rooms a quick going over before I head down to mum’s. there’s just too much to do!! I have to pack a bag for mum’s as well, and I need to put thought into it this time too lol, simply because I have a day of work and then picking him up the next day.

So excited!!!! I just hope that this week doesn’t drag too much. And do you know what’s really weird? His first flight is at 4.40pm his time, which means that it’s at 9.40pm my time. SO.. not only do I have to go an evening without talking to him (hehehe), it’s peculiar that it only takes so little time to get here!! For him it will feel longer because he’s travelling forward in time (but not in a Delorian) but for me it won’t feel that long. All i have to do is fall asleep and when I wake up he’ll be here, which is kinda like a dream. Not in the omg this is like a dream having him here, but in the sense that when I dream about him and it feels like he’s with me when I wake up, and now he really, really will be!!! EEEEEEEEE!

Ok, I’m getting myself all overexcited here lol, I have to stop and actually go and try and do something constructive, like getting Claire out of bed to make food. Ha!

I know you’ll be reading this when you’re in work Mr. Pacer, so I thought I’d mention that I love you (like that wasn’t plainly obvious already) and don’t be getting all misty eyed in work over this post, because you’ll be here soon enough and you can be misty eyed all you want And I’d like to end with a couple of quotes from knowledgeable people, which make me smile and reinforce the fact that this relationship is worth a million days missing you just to be able to see you for one.Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. 

“Pooh!” he whispered.  “Yes, Piglet?”  “Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw.  “I just wanted to be sure of you.”  ~A.A. Milne    (no one else will get this )

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.  ~Emily Brontë

And one more

You know it is love when you want to share everything with her, even her pain. You know it is love when you can’t stop thinking about her. You know it is love when you’d rather be in a relationship but apart than not in a relationship at all. But, most of all, you know it is love when your happiness is dependant upon hers. – Robert LeBranch

Talk to ya soon

x x x

I can’t wait, I miss him so bad at the moment.

Love you baby

We all know that I like to over think things, and I’m afraid I’m doing it again

I’ve been mulling over and researching working in America for a couple of months now. It’s an awkward process and difficult to achieve the destination that you want. So here’s the breakdown for the next few months.

I’m basically going to be broke, and I mean, flat out broke. Between now and Dec, I need to save for my flights for Jan. Then in Jan, I need to save my butt off (which means no more going ANYWHERE) to be able to apply for a winter job in the states, so to be honest, every penny helps. It’s going to cost £800 or $1600 to be able to get my visa and insurance for going and for access to a jobs database through this company. Then, after I have enough to do that, I need to save to be able to pay for my flights and for accommodation. UGGGGHHH lol

So my trip in Jan is going to be my last one for a while, and I need to start thinking about approaching different employers directly for the winter season to be able to work in the area i want to (which is of course as near to B as I can manage)

So generally I think I can survive still if I put up $300 a month, so hopefully B can help me out with this, even a lil bit. (hehehe) My only reservation is that I’m not going to see him for like a complete year unless he can come over here. Which is a lot to ask, so we’ll have to talk about it and see what can happen. If I get the visa and everything, then I’m not going to be over there until like Nov/Dec next year, but at least at that time, i’ll be there for like 6 months min and 10 months max. And then of course my main hope is that I can move from a winter job into a summer season job and I won’t even need to come back here. 

And my thinking is, my placement won’t be like in B’s town, I know that. But I’d like to be somewhere not too far away, that we can visit. So I can see him like during the week or at the weekends. I don’t really care if it’s like a 2 hour drive, as long as I don’t have to wait for months on end just to spend a small amount of time with him. On the other plus side, I’m applying for my diversity Visa in Oct and my loan will be finished by next Dec, which means that I will be in the process of immigrating anyway and any debt on this side of the ocean will be cleared. The stay when I’m working over there will also help me build up my credit rating in the States, so if I do get my immigration, or B and I spontaneously decide to tie the knot, I’ll have the ability to apply for an apartment or whatever and I’ll have some sort of a financial background. Wooo! See, good ideas come from over thinking. lol.

Plus, the time that I’m over there I can make the decision once and for all as to whether or not the US is definitely for me. If yes, then we’re fine and B and I can make other decisions from there. If not, then the option of here is always available and B and I can discuss the finer details on how things are going to work.

Right, I have to go here, my bestie is leaving for Australia on Tues and I must go and say farewell.

Brian, I know you’re reading this no doubt I’ll talk to you later after you’ve had a sleep and are feeling a wee bit better.

I love you

Talk to ya soon

x x x

Not at anyone, but at a something. 

Something = TIME.

grrr, stupid time.

It goes too slow, I’ve got 15 more days to wait til he’s here and it’s friggin KILLIN ME. 

That’s all i’ve really got for now, I think anyway. I have a few things I need to do over the next couple of weeks. Roby’s leaving do is on Sunday (fun fun fun!) and next week is simply panic mode. Then the week when he gets here is the week that Claire leaves and I get to clean house lol. Gotta also get my hair dyed and my eyebrows waxed (uuuuuuuuggggggghhhhhhh) and stupid things like changing the bed and making sure I have food and such in the house (which I think should be ok).

(guess I have more to say than I thought.) Bit more skint than I thought, or rather hoped, I would be. So I’m prolly gonna have to borrow some cash. (so i’m not your sugar mommy, you’re my sugar daddy hehehe)

Right, I’m away here.

Bored in work, nothing unusual there lol.  So I thought i’d do a quick update of randomness on here instead.

Brian is due in 16 days. No, he’s not pregnant, he’s flying out here to see me.

The weirdness of that, is that I’ve never had anyone even take a day off work for me, let alone fly 3500 miles to come see me for two whole weeks. B and I had this conversation when I was heading over there in April, that he found it really strange to have someone go all that way just to see him, and I must admit I now kinda understand how he felt. It’s a really peculiar feeling, one that I can’t really explain.

The whole thing still feels like a dream a little bit. It’s cause i’m not travelling anywhere, I suppose if I had the whole experience of getting packed and sorting everything out to be able to travel makes things more realistic. Whereas now he’s coming to me, it’s just a strange thing to be sitting here waiting for him, knowing that he’s over there getting everything sorted out. I miss him so bad.

And I love him so much. The more time passes I feel I miss him more but less. That doesn’t make any sense I know. He’s always in my thoughts, and I mean ALWAYS lol, but it doesn’t seem as hard anymore. And I’m glad that i’m able to carry on now, but I hate it cause I want to miss him, and there’s times when I feel so bad cause I don’t. It’s all a bit of a head f**k to be honest.

And I can’t wait til he’s here. To have the movie moment in the airport, and to just be with him for 2 whole weeks. My heart is already breaking with the thought of him leaving, but he has to. And January won’t be long coming in.

Two weeks of plain happiness. It’s unbelievable. I can’t wait, feel like I can’t contain myself. My heart aches for him. Knowing that I get to talk to him at night lets me sleep better, knowing that I get to talk to him during the day lifts my heart and spirit. He’s like life

He gives me the reason to get up in the morning.

He makes me smile.

He’s the best thing since sliced bread, and he doesn’t even realise how awesome he is. I hope he never realises this, cause the day he does is the day that he’ll change, and I never want him to do that. I want him forever..

…just the way he is.

Talk to ya soon

*kisses*

You can see it over there on the left hand side..

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Man makes me grin like a Cheshire cat, and I just can’t help myself lol

Anyways, he’s here in 18 days. 18. That’s like, nothing in comparison to the months we’ve been apart. And I’ve got lots of fun things planned, but I’d much rather spend the two weeks with nothing but me and him. I just can’t wait to see him. Ugh lol.

I keep having the dream of the movie moment in the airport in Dublin. The whole, rushing into each other’s arms and slo mo and music lol.

So excited!!

So sorry sorry sorry LOL

Anyways, as a quick update to life:

• Work- Nothing unusual here, still as quiet as ever. Craig is leaving at the end of the month as is one of our hated engineers
• Home - Still living with Claire, still having a laugh and pulling each other’s hair out lol
• Brian - Yeah, he gets a catagory of his own lol. Arrives over here on 20th Sept, can’t wait.

Nothing really else is going on. It was my birthday on August 6th. Didn’t do anything and didn’t see anyone, nice quiet day lol.

Went to M&D’s theme park on Sunday with the geeks. Tons of fun was had, and we’ve agreed that we should go to Blackpool the next time ha.

So, as I said, B is here on the 20th Sept. I’ve been dancing about like a mad thing, only a month to go and I’m super excited. Can’t believe he’s gonna be here, dunno whether or not i’ll be able to let him go lol. But it’s not long until I’m over there again so it’s not so bad

Right, I’m gonna go and pretend to be doing something constructive, like playing games on Shockwave

Talk to ya later

x x x